bowling, hockey, where does it end!?

Today, I have been to the HRC benefit bowling, where I represented the CDC team (woot! my score was 167 bitches!). Who knew that the Bowling Express in Midtown had Blue Moon on tap?? Well, now I do! Anyway… it was a lot of fun, and it benefited a good cause. See this picture? Think of my bowling skills. Yeah, that’s right… oh yeah!

Also, James and I are slated to go to our very first Thrashers game tonight; the first, that is, of the notorious Valentine’s package of games. Here’s looking to comfortable seats, a winning score, and lots of 24 oz liquid fun (beer that is). Hope that everyone else’s Saturday is as awesome as this one has been…

This is doing a good job of keeping my friend’s precarious situation out of my mind. Ugh… I just wish it were all a dream.

I still just can’t believe it.

I haven’t said anything about what has been stressing me out to the max this week (in fact, I doubt many of you knew I was stressed…), because it was highly private, and hit a little close to home; but now, the cat is out of the bag, and I need to vent a little. A really close friend of mine went missing on Monday, after a fire occurred at the place where he works. Not really connecting the two incidents, I just worried about where my friend was, and why he had gone. He contacted no one, but did send me an email letting me know he was alive; but that was all. Then, a fire marshal called me to answer some questions about my friend because he wanted to see if I knew his whereabouts, and I went from worried to panicky. Not only was I worried about my friend, but now, he was potentially a suspect in a crime that I could not believe he would commit. Needless to say, last night, before I was able to talk with the fire marshal, my friend turned himself in to the police, and admitted to the arson that occurred at his work on Monday.

I am honestly completely reeling right now. I am floored; in a total state of shock. This came out of left field, and I can’t believe that this has happened; I knew he was depressed and stressed out, but I never thought he would be capable of something like this. This is so not like my friend, and worst of all, I feel like it was a cry for help. He had been pulling away for the past several months, and I have just felt powerless to help him. I just feel awful that I wasn’t able to help him get the help he needed, so that he could have avoided something like this (even though I know that it isn’t my responsibility, I still feel awful). You never can truly know what is going on with someone, and in this case, it is especially, and sadly, true. My thoughts are with him and his family right now, and I just hope that things will work out as best they can, soon.

why, it’s chicken vi-ola! my favorite!

Last night at trivia, I told a funny story about my sister, and it kind of spiraled into an even funnier conversation; here’s an “interpretation”, meaning “how I am writing this up for the blog”, of how that went:

Somehow we got on the topic of chicken, which somehow spiraled into my story about my sister referring to the ready-to-cook chicken meal “Chicken Voila!” as “Chicken Vi-ola”. I was joking to Darcey, who was talking about her new catering business she is starting (GO DARCEY!!!), that she should name her business Voila!. Then, we all made the observation, based on the story about my sister’s country interpretation of voila, that people like my sister, may mistake the name for of her company as vi-ola, and that would really misdirect the message that Darcey is trying to send (class vs. “country interpretation”). Then, the spiral that follows:

a menagerie I tell ya!

First off, I just want to say thanks to everyone that had kind words to share yesterday. I have said before, and will say again; the best thing about blogging and the internets, is that you get to share things with people, and learn that you are not alone in how you feel or what you experience. I love that we get to do this. Now, let’s get together for a rousing game of who’s in my mouth. Just kidding… thanks people; may we all get started on making those changes and end our feelings of drowning, I know I am going to no matter what! Now if I could just find that magic box of “unlimited answers and resources as to how…” that I misplaced…

Second, it is 70 degrees here today. Now, I know that it is the first day of March, and technically, getting closer to spring, but seriously. In Atlanta this year, we completely skipped over winter. I am not joking, I really only remember like 2 days where it was below 40 degrees. It snowed once; and that was just a freak occurrence. Is the trend going to become no winter in the south? I refuse to believe that this has “nothing to do with global warming”, as many scientists have said. I am calling BS. I am also calling for someone to come and fend off the massive mosquitoes that are going to stalk and hunt us all this summer, er, I mean in a few days. This summer is going to be a squelcher; I will just have to get the blender ready (ahem… James, baby, let’s get that fixed fast!); we are going to need some daiquiris.

my recapitulating cycle of numbness

You know, sometimes, I honestly feel like I am drowning, but for one reason or another, I am just too lazy or unmotivated to do anything about it. And it isn’t for lack of trying, either. No matter how hard I try to break through the surface, I stay there, running out of air. I think of what is good in my life, and try to focus on how to get through that situation. I know that all I need to do is take the next step, and actually swim to the surface, but for whatever reason, I can’t. Something in me is comforted by the strange sensation of almost slipping away. Eventually, I do start to realize that I have to surface, but usually, I only come up long enough to get enough air so that I can go under again; and the whole process repeats itself.

That is how I have felt for the last year or so… drifting, treading water underneath the surface, unable to break out of my pattern of lazy desires and no actions. My friends and my partner all joke that I have too many irons on the fire to focus on one cohesive elemental dream to follow. I agree, but still I ponder those changes, underneath the surface.

still obsessing…

I am still looking at what can be done with the razr, so I haven’t given up hope. I also want to say that I think it is hilarious (not sarcastic people… really funny!) when people comment to me about phones they have on other carriers in order to try and get me to just move over, or get one like theirs; I am not switching. That isn’t even an option for me. Verizon may be a bitch when it comes to locking down their already shitty phones, but their service rocks my face off (after all, that is what the phone is for, right?), and their customer service is pretty awesome. So, I am sorry, I will not be able to utilize that advice… even if I really want to (no seriously, after seeing Lori’s razr next to James’s razr… um, yeah… hers is the bomb. almost enough reason to switch. almost.) But I do want to offer up a congrats on your awesome and way more cool phone, though. Seriously… kudos.

What I have learned about the phone, though, is that Verizon is pretty much a greedy corporate money-monger; they locked down the ability to transfer files via bluetooth (which is half the reason any one would want to have a bluetooth capable phone), in order to force you to pay that $3.99 for a ring tone or whatnot. If anyone has any other ideas on how to get around that… again, I am all ears. In the mean time, I am going back to my search. It amazes me how into things I can get some times…

to razr or not to razr: that is my question

Yesterday, James got that new razr phone from Verizon, and much to my dismay, it is practically featureless. See, my dismay comes with his purchase, because I am getting a new phone in a couple of months, and I had my heart set on the razr. But, now that I have had the chance to see his, and try to play around with the features, I am more than disappointed. You give up practically everything that any of those other phones (even the one I currently have) can do. So, now, I am torn between getting the razr, or getting this one, which is an updated version of the phone that I currently have. I think that it would be awesome to have the razr, just because of the sleek design and whatnot, but I would totally miss being able to have my own ringtones (without paying $2.99 a piece for them). My current phone has a memory card, so I can store literally 128mb worth of stuff on there, and if I got the updated version, I could put music videos and stuff like that on there… So what to do? Anyone have an advice? If anyone has the razr with Verizon, and can key me in to the goods that it has locked inside, talk away… I really want to know.

um, did he just do what I think he just did?

James and I were just at Whole Foods getting something to eat (eel sushi makes me happy!), and since it was so packed, we had to eat in the car (fine by us, it was a little like a picnic!). Well, our car was facing the street, so as we were enjoying our delicious goods and beverages, we were talking, and making comments about cars and people walking by and whatnot. Then, a guy with downs syndrome walked by, and even though we weren’t really paying any attention to him, nor were we making any comments about him (even if we were, there was no way he could have heard us… and like I am so heartless that I would say anything about a guy with downs… come on, I do have a heart, you know); he gave us the finger about 9 times in the span of 30 paces as he walked towards the Whole Foods. He wasn’t looking at us or anything, he was just holding up his arm and repeatedly giving us the finger. Of course, that was pretty hilarious to us… James and I wondered if he really even knew he was giving us the finger, or if he was doing it intentionally. Either way, it was pretty interesting to be on the receiving end of a non-hostile middle finger “attack”. Next time, I may vote to eat in the car regardless if the place is packed or not…

universal truths and whatnots!!!

Welcome to Universal Truths and Whatnots!!! Today’s segment is about things that are universally true and not at all false!! That means that they are, you guessed it, true!!! That’s right folks, I am here to bring you things that are true, no matter who says them or believes them! Things like:
–> gravity! (it does exist!)
–> math! (2+2 always = 4! cool huh??)
and one of my personal, all time favorite absolute universal truths:
–> pro-choice and pro-abortion are NOT THE SAME THING! A little known fact, that I have uncovered for today’s segment, is that pro-choice refers to freedom and the RIGHT to CHOOSE; and abortion has to do with what comes out of that choice (but only if you choose to do it! so not in every case, right? right!). Kind of like cause and effect, but only sort of, because sometimes there is no effect!! Kind of like, not wanting to eat chocolate because the effect will be fat thighs, or saying “fuck it, I love chocolate” and enjoying your fat thighs! So if you don’t agree with abortion, you can choose NOT TO HAVE ONE! SWEET!

YAY!!!

That concludes this episode of universal truths and whatnots. Thanks for stopping by and we’ll see you next time here on universal truths and whatnots; the place where all that is universally true and whatnot is uncovered!!!

beginning of the end…

I am feeling much better today; it is amazing what a little alcoholic excursion and some trivia can do for ya. More of that (the alcoholic excursions, that is) tonight, tomorrow, and Saturday… so, things are looking up! HA!

Anyway… The reason this post is titled the beginning of the end, is in regards to the ban that lawmakers voted on in South Dakota, which if signed by the governor, will outlaw most abortions in South Dakota. Things like this really scare the shit out of me, and should really strike fear in the hearts of all Americans:

After more than an hour of fierce and emotional debate, the senators rejected pleas to add exceptions for incest or rape or for the health of the pregnant woman and instead voted, 23 to 12, to outlaw all abortions, except those to save the woman’s life.

(from this article)

Now, I have a question here; are they nuts??? We are so worried about our freedoms and liberties that we are willing to wage war wherever we want, and do whatever it takes to secure our national security and safety, but we are unwilling to let women make a choice as to what to do with their own bodies?? I thought we were FOR freedom?!