Month: October 2006

I was driving in to work in bumper to bumper traffic (why do I continue to use the freeway? Perhaps now I will stop), and all of a sudden… BAM! My head hits the headrest, and my heart is beating wildly… I have been rear ended! I have lived in Atlanta for more than 6 years, and never so much as a ding… then, I am rear ended today. While no one was hurt, and there was NO damage (thank GOD), I did pull over immediately, over to the left of the HOV lane. Crazy Asian lady followed. While I sat in my car, calling 911, she pulls in front of me, halfway sticking out into traffic, and holds her hands and head out of the window in the “what the fuck is going on, why are we stopping?” pose. While this makes me mad, I continue with the call, and just as I get the operator, a cop pulls up behind me. I got out, walked over to the lady’s car, and explained that we needed to talk to the officer, after asking her if she was okay. She immediately launched in with the “there is no damage!” “why do we need to talk to the cop?!” “there is no damage!” routine. Um… yeah. So I stand there with the cop and the lady, and we assess that there actually is no damage, but her attitude is continually growing more and more unfriendly. Keep in mind, crazy lady, you hit ME! So then, it gets good. The lady tells the cop that she is late for work, and doesn’t have time for this crap. Then she asks him who he works for!!! LOL He replies with a laugh, “Um, I work for the State of Georgia. I am a highway patrol officer, ma’am.” Then he tells her, “Ma’am, if you feel that you do not have time to fill out a report, which will take a considerable amount of time (and she is still saying over and over, “I’m late for work!”), I can just take you to jail right now for leaving the scene of an accident.” She goes, “I don’t want that! I am very late for work!”. The cop is doing everything he can to hold back laughter, and looks right at me, as the Asian lady walks back to her car to move it (as it is in the middle of the HOV lane), and says, “I personally don’t see any damage, and she is going to be very difficult to deal with. Do you want to fill out a report? I am telling you right now, that I wouldn’t.” So I decided not to, just on the simple fact that there really wasn’t any damage, and I was so shaken up, that the crazy lady screaming “I’m late for work! There is no damage” was just too much for me. The cop was very kind, and then sent us on our way. What was funny, though, is that after she had said, “I am in a big hurry, very late for work”, I told her, “lady, the reason why we are even standing here is because you are in such a big hurry. You need to slow down and not rear end anymore people, okay!”. At least I got that quip in there.

I was still a little shaken when I got to work, but at least there is no damage. Hopefully, this will be my last accident while living in Georgia… or ever, for that matter. I will, however, by steering clear of the freeway for a while.

This weekend is a well deserved three day weekend. Here’s how it is looking right now:
Tonight: Indigo Girls at the Tabernacle. I really want to take my digital camera… does anyone know if you can take them in there? It doesn’t say anything on the ticket. Does anyone know if they use metal detectors? Because if not, I am sure I could sneak it in… Thoughts? Because of the concert, I don’t get to go brewery hoping tonight… can we do it next week? Hope so!

Tomorrow: Drive in. What are we going see kids? My vote is officially for School for Scoundrels followed by The Covenant. Thoughts?

Sunday: probably use this day to just pal around the house with James, as I am sure he will have lots of school work to do. Maybe we’ll do dinner with someone that evening. Who knows… you may get the call!

Monday: I currently have nothing planned, but if someone has off Monday and wants to hang out… let me know; I don’t necessarily want to sit around all day.

I also went to my tattoo consultation today for the remaining work on my 1/2 sleeve, and I am really excited. We are going to do a turtle on my inner arm, and a flower (like this one, just more pink and orange) on my outer arm near my elbow. I am really excited to see what it is going to look like!!! I just hate that my final appointment isn’t until January… I hope someone cancels so I can get in there in December… But then again, it really is only like 15 days longer than I was expecting, so it isn’t the end of the world. As always, there will be pictures posted when work is done, so stay tuned. Hopefully we will have a kick ass flower to show off next weekend!!!

What does that mean? Last night, I ended up on a drunken tirade (not really, but it was a monologue, I guess) about what it really feels like when one is depressed, and it was actually quite interesting to be talking to two people that have partners that have experienced/are experiencing at least some level of depression or depression related stuff; while they themselves have not. While I know I was probably a little too drunkie to realize I was preaching to the choir-by-partner, it was interesting to me, because I have come to really truly believe that unless you have been there, you really don’t know how it feels; even if I describe it to you. Reason being, is that you can’t really explain depression, because you (the person with the depression) really don’t understand it yourself. You don’t understand where these feelings are coming from, and worst of all, don’t understand how to make them go away. I know for me, it is one of those things that when I talk about being down (especially on here), people will say “buck up young one”, or “think of all the good in your life”, in a manner of being nice; and not to say that it isn’t appreciated, it is, but honestly I do think about that stuff. I think of what I have, and feel ungrateful. That adds to the depression. Most of the times, people tell me to feel better like I have control over it, and that is partly why I don’t think people that haven’t been there, don’t truly know. I myself never knew how it felt before a few years ago, and even now, it bugs me to no end that I can’t just nip it in the bud, you know?

Either way, I guess I just say this because it is nice to let people know that just because you are depressed it doesn’t mean you are going to commit suicide, and it also isn’t something you can just shake off by thinking about bunnies and rainbows. It is chemical, and until your body can fix it (with the help of meds and counseling), it isn’t going away. It’s serious, and hard to get through, but sometimes, you can’t use advice, you just have to stick it out. You have to wait, in fact, it requires a lot of waiting. And it does suck. But just know, I appreciate the words of kindness… just understand that they can also sometimes turn into words of frustration, especially because it is something that I know that at least I have almost no control over. Ah, that depression… what a bitch, eh?

Hope everyone’s Thursday is going well. I am completely bored out of my mind, and I am ready to go home. Top it all off, we have a 3 day weekend this weekend, and I know that tomorrow is going to be a difficult day to be at work. Hopefully it won’t be that bad… Laters!