Month: January 2006

James and I just got in a fight about him not calling me; which was only a fight, because he stayed at work for an extra hour and a half, and I was left under the impression that he was “on the way”. James told me that he was leaving work at 3:30, and that he would call. Naturally, when he hadn’t called by 4:30, I was more than a little worried. All he had to do was call me/email me and say, “I’m staying a little later, call you when I leave”. Am I being a completely insane boyfriend by worrying and freaking out over the fact that he could be laying in a gutter somewhere? Or, is it too much to ask for the consideration of letting someone know that you are in fact not on the way, and will simply let them know when you are? I just want to get some outside perspective on this, it is something that comes up a lot.

Seriously… two worry wart posts in one day; I promise I am not going mental. But should I be worried about going mental? Ugh…

I know that there are like 2 of you out there that are still waiting on my top movies of 2005 list, and I promise that I will post it soon, but I felt like I was inundating people with lists so I wanted to give you some more of the real me before I posted that final list. But, it is compiled, don’t you worry; I don’t procrastinate when it comes to things I like.

As for this post, the reason why I chose this title and subsequently the subject, is because of some dreams that I have been having lately. Mainly I wanted to post about them to kind of get them off of my chest, and sort of see them in front of me, so that I could put them into perspective. Or perhaps, someone may be able to add their analytical insight, and tell me what they think about the hidden meanings within my subconscious. Either way, here goes.

Last night’s dream was pretty simple, but evoked a lot of feeling in me, and enough anxiety to wake me up. I was going to a meeting at work, where all of my bosses would be there. When I got to the meeting, I was so bored that I was overcome with sleepiness, and fell asleep (despite my best efforts to stay awake). When I woke up, everyone was gone, and I was in a bed in a different conference room; and I was even changed into sleeping attire. I was so freaked out by this dream; and I can’t figure out why. I would never actually fall asleep in a meeting (although who hasn’t done the jello-neck droopy head before?), so it isn’t something that is a real threat; but, the feeling of waking up in that bed was so real and scared me. I just knew that it was going to effect me negatively, and without even seeing them, I knew that all of the people in that meeting were going to judge me, and perhaps punish me. Scary!

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